Wednesday 22 May 2013

The Funny Thing About Paranoia

I'll keep this brief as I'm heading back to the land of make believe in two hours. I'm sitting here smiling out of sheer incredulousness.  I've fought for nearly a year to be allowed to reside in what HMP Northern Ireland calls semi-open conditions and had to resort to Judicial Review which fell in my favour in April.  I am still not there nor will i be.

The main reason given for my latest alleged impropriety was that i brought the Home Leave system/Resettlement process into disrepute at Christmas when during a curfew check i made a passing inference to the attending PSNI officer that I didn't smoke, didn't drink, didn't take drugs and have passed over fifty (approx) drugs tests in prison.  This was pounced upon by the people in charge of resettlement and has been a bone of contention through out.

The SEE Programme is causing a complete management overhaul and restructuring of the NIPS and this "change" is causing all sorts of discruntlement.  The people who were responsible for denying me and obstructing and accusing me are no longer the top dogs, main protagonists, unscrupulous disingenuous, upstanding, lawful members of the establishment/they who have "God complex" are no longer in charge.

Now call me a sceptic, paranoid a felon, an offender, or whatever you like but isn't it an amazing coincidence that i have not been "visited" during this Home Leave.  The Resettlement people have deemed me risk assessed and fit to be legally at large for two days without checking on me and legally of low enough security category (D' cat) to live and re-integrate to the community yet they won't let me reside in a part of the prison located "inside" the walls.

These past two nights have been the first in my four years under the duty of care of the NIPS whereby i have not had my sleep interrupted by them either by torch being shone in face, light being switched on or headcounts being carried out first thing in the morning.  I feel so clear headed and relaxed and i haven't even had my coffee yet!

Am i paranoid?  I'll be back in four weeks with a thousand different tales of titter and whit which have made me laugh and made me cry.  Volunteering to go to prison is one of the most un-natural thought processes a human being can go through I've done it six times in the past year thank the stars, the Gods Jose Marhinio it's my last.

So there you go campers.  I'll be in touch.

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